As I sit at work this morning, bored out of my mind, I’m reflecting on my journey.

There are mornings when I wake up and feel great about the progress I’m making. I feel good in my clothes. I can look in the mirror and say, “good morning beautiful”. No’ I’m not conceded or think that I am the best looking or anything. Sometimes you just have to compliment yourself so you believe it. Others can compliment you but it doesn’t seem to mean much. We excuse it with statements such as ” oh, you’re just saying that” or ” you have to say that you’re my _______ (fill in the blank)”. Or we’ll say things like “you really think so?” or “You don’t mean that. Just look at ___________ (fill in the blank)”. We can fill in those blanks with a number of things. Look at my hair, facial blemishes, stomach hanging out, etc. Or we compare ourselves to others in the room. It’s time to stop it. To stop our self-hatred. So yea, sometimes I call myself names such as beautiful, sexy, lovely, and occasionally hottie. If I say it to myself, I tend to believe it more and it affects my day.

There are times when I’m not so nice to myself. Like this morning. I woke up not feeling great and I’m having a bad hair day. So my statement to myself this morning “at least you don’t look as bad as you feel”. Not the most uplifting thing but it is where I am at. I really wish I could have stayed in bed today and rested but the bills wont pay themselves. It also doesn’t help that I would rather be home with my hubby than at work. Today is one of those days where we work opposite schedules. I really don’t like these days but they don’t come along to often.

Reflection is important. Facebook showed me a memory recently from about 6 years ago. WOW! The difference is incredible. Who knew losing 50 pounds could make such a difference. I look in the mirror and sometimes see where I was instead of where I am. Because we see ourselves daily, we often miss the subtle changes that are happening. We see the number on the scale but that is not enough. Sometimes (a lot for me lately) the scale does not move or moves in the opposite direction which can be discouraging. If weighing yourself causes stress or depression (being down on yourself) don’t do it as often. I weigh every morning, it’s what I do. I also track my weight on a calendar posted on my wall. I also note if I was within my macros, gym dates and if I’m in ketosis. I like to so this. It works for me. I like to stay on top of my progress or lack of. I have also started to do body measurements weekly and body photos once a month. This way I can see where I am losing if the scale is not moving.

I find the measurements to be extremely helpful the last couple of weeks. I have been stuck bouncing between 202 and 204. I’ve been eating right and working out 3-5 times a week. I even hit my goal of 6 days one week. I was frustrated that the scale was not moving in my favor. There were a few outside factors that I have reflected upon such as “that time of the month” and stress. I also wasn’t working as hard at the gym. So to see my measurements shrink even though the scale was not moving was encouraging.

Photos are important too. Again, we look at ourselves everyday and wont necessarily see the changes as we progress. Here is a photo from Feb of 2015 of my hubby and I. I think we were at a basketball or arena football game.


And here we are now. This was taken over the weekend at the coast.


I really don’t like photos of myself. I am a photographer so I like to be behind the camera instead of in front of it. As you can see there is a difference in our faces. They are thinner and more defined in areas.

So I encourage you to take a photo of yourself once a month to help track your progress. You will be amazed at the differences you will see in a photo that you will not see in the mirror daily. There is nothing to compare to except what you say yesterday.

If weighing yourself is an issue, spread it out. Weigh once a week or once a month. Experiment and find what works for you and stick with it. Be consistent! That is the best way to see results. If you weigh on the weekends, try to do it about the same time each time. This will help with having our bodies be about the same each time. I weigh first thing in the morning after I get out of bed and use the bathroom. I also weigh in the nude so clothing is not a factor. This way my body is in the same condition each time. No added weight from the days consumption of food. But do what works for you. Experiment and find what works for you. This can take some time to establish a routine. Be patient with yourself, you are learning something new and it takes time.

It took me a couple of months to get a system figured out. I changed several times. I quit weighing all the time because I was getting discouraged when the scale was not moving or went up. I was really hard on myself and it deterred my progress for a bit. I have gone back to daily weigh-ins. I like it but I have added the daily writing of it down so I can compare day to day and week to week. This is what works for me. Yes, I’m still disappointed when the scale moves in the opposite direction. I have to remind myself that weight loss is not linear. It’s more like a bumpy road headed downhill. There will be ups and downs. As long they are just “bumps” that go away quickly, I’m happy. If I notice a trend where it seems like I’m climbing uphill instead of just a bump then it’s time to re-evaluate what I’m doing and why there is a climb instead of a bump.

Take a moment to reflect upon your journey. You are not where you want to be yet but you are on your way. Look back and see how far you have come. Don’t forget to compliment yourself so you will believe it. Believe it! You are beautiful. You are handsome. You are incredible.

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