Ever look in the mirror and Dang I look good? How about, uhhgg this is not a good look for me? I had one of those moments recently.
I was trying on some new clothes. I’ve been buying a lot of new clothes lately. A few pieces at a time. So, there I was in the changing room looking at myself in an outfit. Super cute outfit! But what I saw was the old me. The heavy me. Not the current version of myself. I saw the 260lb me staring back at me with disgust all over her face.
Fast forward to a few days ago, i was sitting in bed reading a book and I looked up at something. On my way back to the book, I looked up my legs and thought, dang, they are getting thin. Keep up the good work. Then I had to look at my arms (this is a sore spot for me. That and my tummy) and noticed the difference there. The bat wings are shrinking. And I have more muscle definition.
So what is the difference between the two versions of me? Not sure! I think it may have something to do with 1) my mood 2) my mood or 3) I spent most of my adult life being heavy so that is the image that is stuck in my head.
We look at ourselves every day in the mirror. It can be difficult to see the changes. The “new” us still sees the “old” us because we are not seeing the changes as we progress. I started taking photos so I can see the differences from month to month. I have not done a great job at this. I need to do better. I need to get back to measuring as well.
So, how can we change our view of ourselves? That is a good question I do not have an answer too. I am not where I’m going yet but I am not where I was. I am still in process. I am hoping that when I reach my final goal, I will be able to let go of the old image of myself that I see in the mirror and embrace the new image in front of me.
Let me know if you have any insight into how to change the me I see in the mirror.